Stopping The Madness...Be REAL..Jesus knows the truth,so who else matters?

Today as I sit here in my home and look around at the Chaos around me, I still laugh and continue to do what I do, every single day. I have no EXACT schedule and I have always been a bit random and can change my mind at the last minute anyway. I get off track and begin another task easily...to a flaw..Thats me, flawed. 


Some, women especially do not want to admit they have flaws and try to hide it from the world...put on a different face for each person they meet, clean up and make everything look perfect for someone we have never met, or try to keep up this for people who "thinks" they know us. Its all FAKE! I can see these people miles away...WHY? I use to be one. I was raised by one. I hated that life...that wasn't me and I didn't enjoy trying to look perfect on the outside when I was crumbling on the inside.


I am ME...I have always been different and never much cared what anyone thought about me...ever..UNTIL I had kids and met other women with kids and THOUGHT they had it more together than I did, so then came the contest of who has it together more, who keeps the cleaner home,the best behaved children etc. 


THAT is EXHAUSTING! (and ridiculous!!) 


Then one day, after crying all day because I was freaking out that the house wasn't clean enough and the kids were acting "bad" and I was literally breaking down and couldn't keep on track...I had made myself miserable trying to keep up appearances. I locked myself in my bedroom and prayed and immediately had peace!  JUST BE YOU...God made you and you are perfect JUST the way you are. HE gave these things to you, HE blessed you with this family and HE knew it would be hard, but HE chose YOU! 


I was chosen to do this...ME! I was given this! If God loves me enough to give me all of this and HE knows I am NOT perfect AT all...but I try my best and I never stop praying all day long to make me better...I want to better, but IF he trusts me with this and knows my mess more than I do, he know EVERY single secret and loves me anyway...HE knows how big my laudry pile is , how I HATE pairing socks and that they end up in baskets, how I procrastinte EVERYTHING until the last minute, how my kids talk back to me, and how I hate to wear a bra at home, and wear flip flops all year long, how I can't make up my mind and dye my hair every color of the rainbow, how I HATE my handwriting and will start over anything I write 10 times, That I am a control freak and want everything MY way, and that when I get frustrated I may yell, and that I am utterly and completely in love with my children and husband and HATE being away from them...EVER. <3 This list is SHORT...I have so many flaws...I am real. I AM REAL human and have so many imperfections;so are the other moms. Yes, every single one of us have ISSUES, and secrets, dirty laundry and YES we all have picked our nose, scratched our butt and gone a day without a shower and most of us don't shave everyday. WE ARE REAL... and that is what makes us beautiful. God made us, he knows who we are, what we like and what we do. HE loves it all. We are for his pleasure! I have to say , I think God must have a great sense of humor though,lol. He must LAUGH! 


I am STOPPING the madness here... Jesus knows the truth...we cant hide it from him and he still loves us...


SO, If you love me. You will love my flaws as well...and I will love yours. You will come to my home,which is always loud and chaotic, will ALWAYS have laundry to wash, fold and put away...Most likely no beds will be made and IF you decide to take a chance on going to the bath room after one of my sons...WELL...good luck :) 


I love all of my friends, I love their mess, I love their realness. It makes me smile :) We all have flaws and that is what makes us beautiful.


Dare to BE real. Who cares what anyone else thinks? If they are your friend, they are real flawed too, some may not admit it and try to cover it up...but its a bit like a M&M shiny and slick and perfect on the outside but goopy and brown on the inside! LOL..((just sayin))


Sometimes we have to just wash off the make up so we can breathe. 


Today is a new day! Thank you Jesus!!